Toothpaste Kisses

baaaby raven · Friend

RE: Toothpaste Kisses

heartcorekiss · Friend

A long time ago, we used to be friends. But I haven't thought of you lately at all. If ever again a greeting I send to you, short and sweet to the soul I intend.

My life just keeps getting better and better...not.
So I'm not sure how much everyone knows about me and Evan.
We've liked each other since last year. When I asked if I could kiss him, he said he didn't want to take things too far and he didn't want a girlfriend. That's when I stopped liking him. I didn't want to waste my time. At some point, I started to like him again (He never stopped liking me).
But now he's the main source of my problems.
It's confusing, I can barley make sense of it.
He started talking to this girl, Celina. Celina has liked him for a while. He went on a sort-of-group-date with her. His words, "I spent the weekend with Celina. I'm starting to like her. We might date." I was mad that he's willing to date this girl but we've both waited for each other, and he won't date me. I yet again put my heart out there and basically asked him out. Anddd I got turned down. He said something like, "If you had just kissed me on the top of the mountain that day like you wanted to, I would be telling this to Celina instead of you." WTF?! He was expecting me to stay around, and be his friend (probably even be more than after things end with Celina). But I can't.
Heart getting hurt for the second time this month, joy.

baaaby raven · Friend

mmm Well, I'm not gonna justify his actions but maybe Evan values your friendship and he knows you're just going to get hurt eventually and then your relationship will get weird afterwards eventually... whereas with this new chick Celina, he doesn't have much to lose because he's just met her ya know?

DramaQueen · Friend

aw im sorry about getting hurt so much recently...
Maybe what Raven says is true though about not having as much to lose but I also dont really get what he's thinking... he said no to you kissing him but then says you should have? urghhh seriously when will we ever understand guys?!!
Hopefully he'll realise he made a mistake and is wasting time he could be having with you - that is if you'd still want to..

heartcorekiss · Friend

This month is ban the R word month. Retarded. We have a handful of mentally retarded kids in our school, and for the PSA, they interviewed them. It was adorable. My sociology teacher has a mentally retarded son. It makes me see it from a different perspective for once.

My best friend, Lena and her boyfriend (since the beginning of this year) broke up :( He's sorta depressed (like Evan is) and just wants to be left alone. It's so hard to watch my best friend cry in lunch.

Evan is still being a diick.

On a really good note, me and Kevin are friends again :))))

Since we have some new members on here. The brief overview on him: He went to my school last year. His mother died a few years ago. His dad lives Michigan. His living situation gets complicated. So in short, he had to move. I tried talking to him a few times after he moved, and he was a huge jerk. We did have feelings for each other, nothing deep.

I requested him on facebook, and he accepted. Then messaged me for my number. He gave me one of the most sincere apologizes I've ever heard from a guy. Then we've been talking since then. The problem is there's this girl Kathy. They dated for a month and a half. They broke up because Kevin said I love you too soon (even though he meant it, so he says) and basically smothered her. A few nights ago, she said I love you to him. And I know Kevin would do anything to have her back.

baaaby raven · Friend

Hmmm, well at the leaast you two can still be in touch and be friends? That doesn't sound so bad to me.
I wish we had ban the R word at our school- everyone throws that word around and we have quite a bunch of mentally retarded kids.

Poor Lena and her ex boyfriend :(

heartcorekiss · Friend

he promised me he's never going to leave me like that again, because once we started talking a bit, he said he realized how much he missed me in his life. and we're friends, but not really. i can tell he'd still pick kathy over me. which i guess if i know that now, when it happens i wont be that shocked.

baaaby raven · Friend

That's a good way of looking at it. It'll still be disappointing I'm sure, but at least you are expecting such a thing ahead of time ya know?

heartcorekiss · Friend

Butterfly, well you landed on my mind. You landed on my ear and then you crawled inside. And now I see you perfectly behind closed eyes. I wanna fly with you and I don't wanna lie to you.

Spring break was simply amazing. I went on a cruise to the Bahamas. It's soooo beautiful there. I had lots of fun :)

I don't talk to Kevin anymore, look at how long that lasted. He decided he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. I tried fighting for him to stay, and he started calling me obsessive. So I gave up. I might try something for Mothers Day. That's a month away, it'll give him some space. I just want to show him I care.
It's just shiity. I can't seem to grasp how it went from really good, to this.

My road test is next Tuesday! I really hope I pass. I really want to drive my car already. I failed my first time because my driving instructor loaded me with info right before the test and I was a nervous wreck and messed up my parallel parking. I'm not using my driving instructor this time.

I have a problem. Two of my friends, Ashley and Courtney, talk about this guy Lee. Ashley liked him at the beginning of the year, but when she started bringing Courtney around, they hit it off. And they had sex. I've started talking to Lee. We are just friends but I have a feeling Lee wouldn't mind hooking up with me. The problem is I have to keep our friendship a secret from them because I honestly don't want to deal with them asking me questions ALL the time. And I don't know if I should just tell them, or let them find out on their own.

DramaQueen · Friend

I'm so jealous you got to go to the Bahamas, I was meant to go with my friend a couple of years ago but she wanted to make the journey by myself which would have included like 3 flights... and going via miami airport which is crazy scary compared to where im from (their guns!!!!).

Good luck for the driving test :)

Hmmm well from what you've said sounds like this guy is a bit of a player and wouldnt want a relationship and wouldnt realise that him getting with all three of you would cause arguments despite him just wanting some fun.... guys seem oblivious to this sometimes... but if you're just friends it should be okay to let them know... unless it really would be a lot of effort with questions - though they shouldnt really be bothered if you're just friends...I dont know what these girls are like but depends which you think they'd react worse to, like if they thought you'd become friends behind their backs, not that you're doing anything wrong with this.
did that make sense? haha i tend to ramble.

heartcorekiss · Friend

yeah i would defiantly be scared to take three different flights. like what if i cant find my luggage? lol

yeah i know he's defiantly a player. he tries to come off all innocent but the second i heard he's had sex with fifteen girls (he doesn't deny it either), i knew he was no good. i don't see anything with him, just friends. but right now we just hang out in a group of people. and i have a feeling when we hang out alone, he's going to try and hook up. i won't deny it, he's cute. not my type personality wise. and if we do hook up, that people will hear about it. it's hard to explain. but like it seems that people talk about him a lot. but i dont even know how to bring up that we're friends, if i was to. like i want them to know, so i dont have to walk on water with them, but when i tell them i dont want it to be shocking news which causes them to ask 21 questions.
sorry that was sooo long haha

DramaQueen · Friend

Yeah i did think that... like it's a bit of a random thing to bring up, like oh by the way Lee and I are hanging out... I suppose you could bring it up in a relevant conversation kinda off hand other wise they may think theres more to it than just friends if you make a big deal out of telling them.

You could maybe say something like, i bumped into lee the other day and we got chatting... as like a start then at least they'd know you'd had a conversation, then maybe bring up hanging out later on...

heartcorekiss · Friend

Yeah I was in the bathroom with Ashley and I was thinking about telling her and then I thought that she might get the wrong idea if I randomly brought it up.

But you do have good ideas (: I hope when I do tell them it's a good moment and doesn't make things awkward or make Courtney mad.

heartcorekiss · Friend

I have loved to the point of madness; That which is called madness,

That which to me, is the only sensible way to love. - Françoise Sagan

Things have been pretty quiet, but not at the same time lol

I fought basically everyday with Evan and it got to the point where I couldn't be his friend, and more of that I didn't want to. Whatever, he doesn't deserve me as a friend.

I hung out with Kevin yesterday, for the first time in a year. Things have been on and off for us. I'm getting somewhere, I know that. Especially because his sister wanted to meet me. He told her no, but she added me on facebook anyways. He's so adorable, I really do see myself with him.

I got my license! I basically have barely been home because I'm always off driving with someone or going places. I'm still debating if I would get caught driving after nine.

All of my friends are getting annoyed with Missy and Joey. They're two of my friends in what I call my "main group". They started dating about a month and a half ago. In short, they're off in their own little world together. This weekend...Lena had a bonfire. Missy didn't go because Joey couldn't get a ride. And I went to the mall with Missy and Joey was going to try and come with only a few hours left. Wtf, I didn't invite him and then she also wanted me to drive him home. Hell no.

omfg caro · Friend

wow, i would seriously hate that
my friend does that all the time,
but now she asks.
except does she seriously think we would say no?
haha it's kind of a point less question.

heartcorekiss · Friend

it's starting to get on my nerves SO MUCH. like joey and missy have a notebook they write in to each other, and whenever missy is writing/reading you can't bother her. and when they're talking, it's like no one else exists. sean had to ask joey like 10 times if he wanted to go and buy lunch with him before joey even noticed sean was talking. and if they're not hanging out on the weekend, they're texting. and yet again, you can't bother her while she's typing. or he has to talk to her every night, so at sleepovers at least 2 hrs are dedicated to talking on the phone with him.

but on the plus side of this, it's brought me ten times closer with lena because missy hates dylan and probably is getting tired of hearing about dylan. so lena has now taken into confiding into me. and we basically hang out every weekend now, instead of the three of us.

baaaby raven · Friend

Uuuugh that sounds so obnoxious. People like that are annoying. I don't think they realize that they still need to keep in touch with their friends... lame

heartcorekiss · Friend

When it comes to family we’re all still children at heart. No matter how old we get, we always need a place to call home. Because without the people you love most, you can’t help but feel all alone in the world

So...Leeee...HAHA uhm...the beginning.
On Friday, I went over to his house till curfew. He opened up a lot to me, but I think it was the adderall talking (not prescribed). I was fooled by his badass image at first, but he is really a huge dork.
Saturday, oh god. Me, Lee, Lena and Molly went to the drive-ins. We hot boxed for 3 hours. It was the funnest night I had in a while.
At this point, I knew Lee was attracted to me. What I never mentioned, was that Lee has slept with FIFTEEN girls. I knew this way before we started talking. I've been prepared for what happened on Monday...
Him, Mike and his girlfriend were already smoking a splif by the time I got there. Mike and Ashley eventually left. I'll spare the details but we ended up in his bed (we only made out though). His mom even made us dinner in bed, hahahaha. I can see why he gets girls. He can be extremely adorable. But thank god I went into this knowing he's a player, because I don't even like him like that.
Lee told Ashley and Courtney we hang out now. They were happy, only because he spared the hook up details. They talk about him non-stop now. And now they want to smoke with me because I'm cool enough to smoke with Lee and as his plus one at parties.