Toothpaste Kisses

heartcorekiss · Friend

RE: Toothpaste Kisses

DramaQueen · Friend

Things in dancing used to make me cry so easily. I dont know why but i think it's because it's so close to me... maybe you feel the same way?
Hope things get better.... if it makes you feel better, the guy im literally in love with came into my room and saw me after crying loads :/

baaaby raven · Friend

Of course everything happens all at one :(
At least it's Friday and you don't have to deal with that shiit for a couple days
FEEL BETTER

baaaby raven · Friend

once*

heartcorekiss · Friend

yesss fridays are my favorite :) lol

heartcorekiss · Friend

All that shimmers in this world is sure to fade

I knew it'd happen, but I didn't think it'd be so soon. Tony texted me saying, "I can't talk to you anymore. Every time I talk to you I feel like a shiity person. I'm so sorry." I didn't get much more out of him. He thinks he's emotionally cheating (I asked him if he liked me. He didn't respond, which means he does). Sam didn't find out we're talking, or anything like that. It's the same reason why he did this the first time. He doesn't trust himself. Like I've said to him; What about me?! When does my feelings and needs come into play? It's all familiar; having someone I care for walk away and leave me to try and lick my own wounds.

On the bright side, Danielle and I have become closer because of this. She has a boyfriend in college, so she understands better then others. She's been there for me and listened to it all. And she doesn't judge me for my past with Tony.

-- Edited by heartcorekiss on Tuesday 9th of March 2010 06:46:33 PM

omfg caro · Friend

does tony come home this week or next week?
and yaaa... he needs to consider your feelings instead of cutting off cold turkey.

and thats good you became better friends with someone out of this :)
this makes me want to reconnect with my friend desirae, hehe.

heartcorekiss · Friend

omfg caro wrote:

does tony come home this week or next week?
and yaaa... he needs to consider your feelings instead of cutting off cold turkey.

and thats good you became better friends with someone out of this :)
this makes me want to reconnect with my friend desirae, hehe.

I thought it was this week, because he stayed at college this weekend that just passed (haha i have to tell you about his piss drunk calls). But he get's home on Friday.

And it makes me feel good. Danielle is very gorgeous and everyone has told me I should be friends with people more in "my league" and I can relate to her better. But she's the girl I told you about that had sex with my friends ex.

DramaQueen · Friend

This Tony guy seems to bring more drama along than girls do! And yeah i agree with Caro, it's pretty selfish of him not to consider you and also kinda immature - how old is he?

But yeah that's cool about Danielle :) It's nice when you make a new friend and just kind of click.

baaaby raven · Friend

I don't know the whole story with Tony but he seems to be a constant annoyance and that sucks that things are so complicated with him. Relationships like that (even if it's just friends) are always a burden and it's like ah shiiiit why do I even care.

But yay for new friends!

heartcorekiss · Friend

Tony just turned 19 last month.
And Raven, I have this post that I posted for Star because she was getting confused with my guys. So I'll quote it for you. Some of it sounds pretty bad. Because my two "ex's", Tony and Bobby, have both cheated on their girlfriends with me. A lot of people judge me based on this, and it's really unfair because I'm not like a whoore or anything.

heartcorekiss wrote:

I'm actually gonna do this for youuu. It's gonna be fun :D

Tony
Age: 18
Location: College, 2 and a half hours away
Girlfriend: Sam, almost 2 years
Looks: Very muscular. Last year he was on varsity football, captain of track, school play, and in The Nutcracker ballet. He goes on and off with having facial hair. He has one of the best smiles and laughs I've ever seen. Half Italian.
Story behind him: He cheated on Sam for almost a year with me. She found out when my so called best friends, spreaded rumors that we had sex. They broke up for a bit over two months, that's when we had something steady going on. But we never dated. College has changed him, for the worst. He says we cannot be friends for as long as he's dating Sam.
(Since this, was the most recent things I've posted about)

Bobby
Age: 17
Location: Here but he's graduating early
Girlfriend: Felicia, a bit over a year
Looks: He's half Native American, so he has that dark olive skin tone. He has the biggest, brownest eyes ever. He's also athletic, was on XC for three years.
Story behind him: He's my first love, happened the summer before Sophomore year. We stopped talking, to let things settle. In this time, he met Felicia. We started talking again around June. He played me by saying he was going into the National Guard, and it ended up not being true. About two months ago, we hooked up. It was basically him giving into what he's been holding out on since we dated.
(Since this, we are no longer friends. We haven't talked in months. And he refuses to admit he's cheated)

Evan
Age: 16
Location: Here
Girlfriend: NONE :)
Ex girlfriend: Alyssa
Looks: Blue eyes, brown hair, a bit pale and tall. He's the dorkiest guy out of all of them, so far. He loves to wear American Eagle. Has contacts but sometimes wears his glasses.
Story behind him: He dated Alyssa for a long time. She ended up cheating on him. You can tell that he's still hurting. He liked my (ex)friend Kier, that's how I met him. Eventually we start to like each other. But the repetitive problem of Alyssa shows up. Just a couple of days ago, she professed that she still wants him. Evan is sorta depressed.
(Since this post, nothing new with him except that I stopped liking him but he still likes me.)

baaaby raven · Friend

Oh wow, that helped a loooottt.
Next time you blog, I'll actually know what you're talking about and maybe can give some insight? haha GOOD LUCK

heartcorekiss · Friend

To put it in the simplest of terms, you're beautiful. you really are.

Yeahhhh draamamaa.

I haven't talked to Tony since he told me he can't do this. I know he came home on Friday. I texted him asking if he could try one more time, for me, and see me face to face to try and work things out. A few minutes later, he called me. I couldn't answer, I was in class. He left a voice mail and I went to the bathroom to listen. Guess who it was? His girlfriend! I never laughed so hard over a voice mail. She basically told me to stop talking to him. Ooops.

Remember a few months ago when Tony's mom called my house? Yeah well, Tony admitted that his mom got my number by going through the school records. She's a teacher, fyi. Isn't that not allowed? Could she get in trouble if I told someone?

darkblue · Date: Mar 15 5:20 PM, 2010

yeah she could get in trouble, unless she had someone's permission to go through your records.

storii · BFFL

indeed she could get in trouble for that,
as for sam, hahaha

and uhm, wait why did tony's mom call your house in the first place?

heartcorekiss · Friend

i doubt she had permission. because she got my number, for personal reasons. not school related.
it's a longgg story. basically a huge mix up. she borrowed tony's phone for the weekend and found old texts from me. so she took it upon herself to do something about it -_-

darkblue · Date: Mar 15 7:22 PM, 2010

unless she was your teacher, that's a big no-no.

heartcorekiss · Friend

nope. she never was.
i would love to get her in trouble but i dont want to explain the situations to 'authorities'

heartcorekiss · Friend

Eight more school days until spring break. Two more 4 day weeks. SO EXCITED. I need this break, big time. I'm going shopping this weekend for bathing suits, cover-ups, flip flops and sunglasses. Victoria's Secret had a new bathing suit that is like their miracle bra, which does wonders.

I actually talked to Tony's girlfriend, Sam. I gave up trying to explain things to her because she doesn't see the truth. She thinks I'm the one that is hitting on him, when it's the opposite. I apologized for what happened last year. I told her that now I'm just his friend. I care about Tony but it seems that caring is mistaken a lot for liking someone. I let Tony walk back into my life, become one of my top guys. To see him walk right back out, hurts. Yeah, I'm going to try and fight for him. I told her all of that. It got ugly when I told her that he lied to her and saw me while she was in Canada and that he drunk called me saying he loves me. She called me an: little high school sluut. Then she proceeded to try and make me jealous by saying to stop talking because she's in bed with Tony. Yeah, she's an mature 20 year old -_-

storii · BFFL

hahahahahah those last two sentences, LOL, i was not aware of this

heartcorekiss · Friend

likeee honestly -_-

baaaby raven · Friend

well, I actually feel like that talk was probably good
she might be immature about it- but I feel like it's good to clear the air ya know? That was brave of yaa

heartcorekiss · Friend

well i TRIED to clear the air. she's never going to accept any of this.

baaaby raven · Friend

She'll come around... maybe when she's like 40 but it'll happen
Still, good for you!

heartcorekiss · Friend

yeah, i think i mainly did it to prove that i'm not a bad person. i truly feel bad for what happened.

ohhhhh, and my friend luke is good friends with sam's brother, kyle. he's a senior at a different school. well luke told me that sam is a biitch. and he met her at chruch. that she's very religious. which is kind of odd, because i know she's had sex with him....even used sex to fix their relationship.