Toothpaste Kisses

DramaQueen · Friend

RE: Toothpaste Kisses

storii · BFFL

ahh mark :) he's so cute but i dont really like kip, he gives off a bad vibe to me.

and hang out with nate :) maybe he can hook you up with somebody ;)

heartcorekiss · Friend

This is our last chance - give me your hand;

cause our world is spinning at the speed of light.

There isn't a whole lot going on. I failed my trig midterm but some smart kids I've talked to, did even worst then me. Overall, everyone did pretty bad. So I don't feel as bad about the grade.
I started my sociology class and I love my teacher. He would have been my AP US teacher, if I stuck with that class. He's really funny. Otherwise, life is pretty quiet. Which can be good, I guess?
Oh and Lil Wayne's new album came out yesterday :)

storii · BFFL

yays, i like the quiet :)

heartcorekiss · Friend

I don’t think having a boyfriend or girlfriend completes you, or is the only one able to make you happy. Yes, they’ll make you smile till your jaws ache but I’ve always believed that you have to be happy on your own before you can be happy in a relationship.

I'm really liking my sociology class even more. I realized the class was for me, when this week he showed us the video for Free Hugs, which happened a few years ago, and I was one of the people that signed the petition. It made me realize that I did something outside of class that involved sociology without knowing it.

I finally had lunch with Josh since we uhh 'danced' at Fire and Ice and I was watching his body language and I noticed he was acting a bit nervous. Him and the other guys have a tendency to tell dirty jokes the whole time and whenever he told one, and I laughed, he would blush. Or he would talk a bit less then usual.
Nothing with Mark, other then he glances at me whenever I walk by. Ughfljdsfs.
Things with Evan are as complicated as ever, and I don't feel like explaining it. Because it doesn't change anything, either way.

-- Edited by heartcorekiss on Monday 15th of February 2010 03:36:23 PM

darkblue · Date: Feb 9 4:23 PM, 2010

i love sociology as well. it's so interesting.

heartcorekiss · Friend

Some things, however, are true no matter how hard you might try to block them out.
And a lie is always a lie, no matter how prettily told.
Some doors, once they’re opened, can never be closed again.
Just as some trust, once it’s been lost, can never be won back.

Again, not that much has been worth talking about.
It's mid-winter break for me. I'm taking this time to relax. Because my next break isn't till April (Bahamas baby!). I'm going to die without even a day off for a month.
I'm acting so different when it comes to guys. I won't hang out with Kip or Luke because they just want to hook up. Last week; One of my guy friends came over to give me a hug. A few tables away, Mark and all of his friends looked in my direction when I stood up. The old me, would approach him but this new me is waiting for him to make a move.
On the bright side, Evan's sister told me that one of her friends said I was the best dressed in the school.
My grades weren't that good this quarter and my mom said if I don't bring them up, she's pulling me out of dance. I will be completely devastated.
Hmmm. Not much else.

zombieblonde · Sometimes I make a funny face to make you think I'm ok.

I recognize that quote, but can't quite remember exactly where it's from...
That would really suck about being pulled out of dancing because of grades. I got in so much trouble because of mine this quarter.

heartcorekiss · Friend

yeahhh. i know dance IS part of the problem but im not willing to give up classes. the problem is that most classes start at 4. which means if i want to stay after, i need a ride, not the late bus. and by the time dance is over, i just want to shower and sleep.

DramaQueen · Friend

My mum made me quit some classes when i had exams :( It just made me feel sad all the time, because dance is what made me happy.
Hope you can work things out...

heartcorekiss · Friend

The bad thing about falling to pieces is that it hurts.
The good thing about it is that once you're lying there in shards,
you've got nothing left to protect, & so you have no reason not to be honest.

Just friiickinnn' fantastic.
Yesterday, Tony started talking to me again. It's been what, four months?
I can't stand it anymore. Last time we talked he said we can't even be friends.
Oh, and I'm dying my hair back to it's normal color.

heartcorekiss · Friend

Things in life don't happen to you, they happen for you.

So, I hung out with Tony.
We went out for coffee, like we usually do.
It was so good to see him again. He's changed but has also stayed the same. I thought because he listened to rap 24/7 that he turned into some coccky college frat boy. That's not true. He doesn't party that much because of track (Haha he squats over 500 lbs now). And every weekend he's out of town at a track invitational.
Surprisingly, he brought up his girlfriend twice. It wasn't awkward. The first time, his phone was dying and I said just turn it off and he said that, "Some people have to keep track of him, and I'm not talking about my parents." The second time, he told his girlfriend he was hanging out with Eric and I asked why she wasn't with him anyways. She's in Vancouver. Her brother is Trevor Marsicano. He's a speedskater and won gold for the US.
And flirting? When we hung out there wasn't much of that. Yeah, a lot of eye locks and teasing but no physical contact. Then he suggested I come over after my parents go to sleep and go in his hot tub. I was going to, but my dad didn't fall asleep till after both of us did. Lol.
But supposably we're hanging out again tonight.

-- Edited by heartcorekiss on Saturday 20th of February 2010 06:48:09 PM

storii · BFFL

i see the beginning of a beautiful friendshipp

heartcorekiss · Friend

am i sensing sarcasm? lol

storii · BFFL

no you are not actually :P

heartcorekiss · Friend

hmmmmm haha

omfg caro · Friend

homo

heartcorekiss · Friend

And this girl has seen a lot of pain, but this girls gonna smile again.
She knows a flower grows every time it rains.

My friends have been annoying me lately.
So it's been a ritual; that me, Missy and Lena all hang out in the morning.
I'm the only one who hasn't had a boyfriend this year. I'm saying this, because the boyfriends come to our hang out.
Lena, I've sorta got used to because she's been with Dylan this whole year. He doesn't hang around her or come to her locker every morning.
Missy now has a different boyfriend, Chris (it's not going to last, because she likes our guy friend Joey. And that won't last either...).
It's just like...they're PDAing with them and I'm kinda standing there awkwardly. Then when we all leave to go to class, I'm walking alone because they're walking with their boyfriends...It's just stuff that leaves me feeling lonely and uncomfortable.
And I can't go and tell them to stop. That would get mad and they wouldn't listen to me anyways.

DramaQueen · Friend

That kinda sucks, it's like being the third wheel but worse... like the 5th wheel i guess :/
If they're good friends they probably should try and understand. Ask them how they'd feel in your situation. Unless you really cant talk to them at all... then maybe try hanging out with some others for a while, then they may ask why so you could explain...

darkblue · Date: Mar 3 3:15 PM, 2010

amen, sistah. i hate being the third wheel.

baaaby raven · Friend

I agree with Annie's solution
Feel better and good luck!

storii · BFFL

if they wouldn't listen to you then i don't think you should do that because then it just makes it seem like you're being a bit pathetic about it. like if they don't care then you shouldn't either
and that also goes to say that when they do that, don't just stay in your own little word, try and make conversation with all of them. unless they're being PDA then i'd go away cause that's not gonna stop. but for Lena and Dylan just like chill talk with them. and it shouldn't be that hard if Lena and Dylan have been together all year.

heartcorekiss · Friend

yeah i was thinking about doing what you suggested, annie.
i could talk to them about it...but what could i say. that i would appreciate it if your boyfriend stopped hanging off of you alllll the time? i don't expect them to ask their boyfriends to stop...
i know i'm not the only one who feels it. one day, our friend sean came over. and the PDA started and he was like, "sooo uhhh paige, how are you?"

-- Edited by heartcorekiss on Wednesday 3rd of March 2010 08:18:40 PM

DramaQueen · Friend

Yeah it makes it so awkward for everyone else!
Maybe the novelty will wear off (though by the sounds of it not so much with the couple who have been going out a year!)
It's kind of rude of them but maybe they dont even notice you feel left out other wise they may be more considerate... I dont know really... maybe one of the girls is easier to talk to than the other?

heartcorekiss · Friend

well for missy, she has a tendency not to stay with one guy for long. two months at max. and it's hard as her best friend to meet all these guys and try and make conversation. her ex, i was friends with him before he and missy dated. and when they dated, we would all talk as a group. this guy she's currently dating, chris, he's really quiet. so when he comes to missy's locker; he'll basically take up all her time and not make conversation with the rest of us.
lena, it isn't as bad. because she's been with him for a while, we talk. really the only awkward time with lena is i'll be talking to her and dylan will be coming, and she stops talking to me, like right in the middle of a conversation.
it only annoys me because the morning is basically the only time i get to hang out with them, besides the one lunch we have together and on weekends.