wow, that movie does sound sad!
i'd been crying the entire time too. i'm a softy.
and thats good that you're setting goals for yourself. i'm determined to get all A's this semester.
my last semester of high school :)
good thing you didn't hook up with that guy, haha.

Run when you can,
Walk when you have to,
Crawl if you must; just never give up.

16.4.10
entry 17.

I forgot to say last week I got my hair done. My hair had gone so dark at uni but normally goes really blonde in the summer, so I got some white blonde then a warmer almost caramel coloured highlights and had it cut nicely with a side fringe cut back in and layers :)

Ohhh no, this Iceland Volcano is causing havoc. I dont know if you guys heard about it? Not sure if it's affecting that side or not, but there has been no planes for 2 days and none tomorrow either as all the ash and bits of rocks in the sky have made it dangerous to fly and it's moving all over Europe... I need to get back to uni , my flight was meant to be tomorrow!!

I was determined to lose some weight this holiday... no such luck. Going to my grans for lunch and out for meals with my friends probably didnt help. There is no way I'm getting into a bikini like this. Deff got the Freshman 14... uggggghhh. Now i'm actually at a healthy weight it's just the fact i've never been this weight and never been used to have like extra fat in different places haha. God knows how i'll get rid of it.



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-- Edited by DramaQueen on Friday 16th of April 2010 06:38:14 AM

ahahah that's hilarious!! Yeah i was too... i thought a great chance to lose weight... but especially first term every things so new and being healthy isnt a great priority. I was so glad to come home for decent meals...

Stranded here though, no planes :( they're all cancelled. It's causing more airspace havoc than 9/11 and they havnt seen anything this disruptive since WW2!!!
I need to get back to do this stats report...

I heard about the Europe thing. That really sucks.
I guess Obama wanted to fly over there to go to Poland's presidents funeral.
It's hard to believe that Polands whole government died on that plane. Sounds a little odd.
Anyways, my gov teacher said it might be a turn around for global warming.
Maybe it's a good thing?

very true
and its not like i want to pollute the earth
but i hope they start building more airplanes and jets
cause my dad works for a company that builds them lol
hahaha

That definitely makes sense with the randomers- how you want to be wanted and whatnot. What I would do is think about something that makes you laugh genuinely or think of something that you lose your sense of time while doing (when you're alone mostly) because then you'll know what makes you happy and that could lead you to a more permanent mood you know? You'd probably feel more comfortable if you figured out what made you happy as well.

Thanks Caro and Raven - you made me feel a little better :)




3.5.10
entry 19.

Life has been pretty hectic since last week, got my assignment in finally - unbelievable stressed I wont pass it as it was 40% of the module and it's compulsory for the rest of the year. I got 18/20 in one of the other parts and we still have an exam to go so hopefully it'll be okay...

This will probably be quite long...
We had a BBQ last week once my assignment was in then on the saturday one of my flat mates friends came over and we all went out - ended up getting with him :/ he seemed really nice though not my type. Then on sunday we just got wasted and went out into the park, was hilarious. Definitely a good night, sometimes the best ones are when you just stay in with a load of friends.
I dont know why I'm writing all this - i know no one really reads all this reeaaaally long stuff about what i've done but I dunno, i guess it's interesting for me to read when i get old and life is boring.

So monday we went to this club i like :) Saw a couple of really hot guys :) and then 3 I had got with over the past year all in the same room - awkward much? Was a good night though, nothing overly interesting happened though.

Wednesday we went to Chase and Status :D do you guys know of them in the US? It was awesome! Met a guy who apparently really likes me (back to him later... ) then went with two friends to this guys flat with his friends where they had a load of weed, 'drone and laughing gas. Mephedrone is something i'll never ever do though. That was pretty fun. One guy i walked back with, turns out only walked with me a diff way to everyone else to ask about my friend... :( he was nice, she's lovely too though :)

Friday.... went back to the same club as wednesday but with different people for this guys bday. Met up with that same guy from wednesday (guy A) but then got distracted with another (Guy B). I know it sounds bad i'm trying to work on my self control when drunk. Anyway involved an incident including the guys toilets I will not go into on here!! Then got with guys A's friend (guy C), and stayed with him the rest of the night till i went home at 5.30am... so i feel terrible about that. Then went to the guy i like from my flats room till about 8.30 am where they had just been smoking weed since god knows when so that was hilarious.
Then slept all day! haha.

Today was definitely a let down - no one was around, dead bored. And feeling bad about friday night... guy C keeps texting when i'm really not interested... I need to sort this stuff out.

haha wait till uni, my life was never as interesting during school years. Probably something to do with the fact we party most nights rather than just weekends and ... NO parents :D

Well the guy situations are mostly sorted out now, going to try and forget bathroom boy and the other one has stopped texting after i never replied haha.
Shame the three guys i reallllly like here all have girls now anyway...

Mmm my best friend is like that-- she flirts with everyone but the person she likes, and she doesn't ever go in for the first move and the guy's are always shy so nothing happens. If you want to be with your flat mate, I'd wait like a week or so and ask how his girlfriend (or lack there of) situation is going, and then tell him how you feel. Just a simple, well I like you, is all that's necessary I think. Scary, but I think it might work... it'll make you feel better anyway. I mean, not initially but later you can say, hey I tried. Ya know?

Good luck with your exams, Annie Bananie- feel better!

:( :( :(

Good luck, Annie. Study and sleep as much as possible! Resist the urge to go out ahaha

Because the truth is,
it doesn't really matter who I used to be.

It's all about who I’ve become

14.5.10
entry 21.

Something that really annoys me that keeps happening lately.... when people hear I dance they're like oh what to do you? So I say Ballet (because since uni that's all ive had time for) and they're like ooohhh show us a ballet move. Well what do you want me to do?! Nothing I can do will impress them if the only time they've seen ballet is some professionals doing multiple fouettes en pointe and grande jetes higher than I could ever jump... then there is the very common.... but annie you must be able to do that, you're a dancer!
Well yeaaaaah but dont they get how hard it is? And the training needed?!

I'm trying to forget the three guys who i really like...obviously nothing will happen and it's stupid me getting upset about it. Apparently boyfriends always come along when you dont expect it...

I'm starting the Special K two week diet on saturday, hopefully it'll help kick start me getting ready for summer and the dreaded BIKINI! haha. I just bought a new bandeau one with little sail boat prints on it :)