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min jun · Member

planet z

baaaby raven · Friend

I like this blog so far. And I love kpop :)

min jun · Member

Thanks! Me too. (:
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just a blur of faces that didn't look human at all
when it comes to writing, i'm not confident at all in my own. i have journalism this semester and the presenta-
tions are killing me. i stumble over words and it's as if no one hears me. people say i'm good at writing and a
senior said i was "amazing" at writing, but why can't i see that? i use the same words over and over "plastered"
"merely" aishhh~ i don't know but after awhile reading my writing gets a bit boring. i love reading others work
for the fact it's something new and i've turned to reading fanfic. fanfic is so cute, but some of it is really hard to
read for the fact that some of the people who write it are trying to polish up learning the english language and
to be truthful their writing in english is horrible. but there are some fanfics where the whole thing is just so perf-
ect and intriguing that i can't stop reading. i know fanfics deal with homosexuality and me being a Christian the
idea of homosexuality is wrong and we apparently "hate gays" (which isn't true for all of us) but i just love fanfic.
it's not like i'm going to turn into a lesbian from just reading it lol. i've even wrote some of it myself... no smut tho.

-- Edited by min jun on Sunday 28th of March 2010 06:45:30 PM

min jun · Member

you wake up with a list of all the people you'd rather be.
but you're already on everyone else's list.
i make everything rather awkward. seriously i do, but i can't help it. i talk about the most awkwardest stuff, -
well that's not going to change. yesterday all the homework i had just about killed me. i wonder what's go-
ing to happen to me next year when i take ap classes. if the work i had yesterday kicked my ass (and i ended
up not doing my english hw because i had left my binder in class), then i have no clue. i need to stop proc-
rastinating and start doing my work. two more days before spring break and i'm making up my mind about w-
hat i'll do over the break:

[+] study hangul and romanize out the
b2st member thanks of my b2st cd
[+] draw lee do hyeong for visual arts class
and obsess over other hot guy ulzzangs
[+] work on my huge english project
[+] mope over how boring my life is
[+] spend time on the comp doing
nothing

why are boy ulzzangs so beautiful? it is not fair. a guy shouldn't be as pretty as a girl. ;-;

darkblue · Date: Mar 30 9:56 PM, 2010

i procrastinate biggg tiime too. it's unhealthy ahahah.

min jun · Member

the craziest things have the deepest meanings
Today I was thinking about how I put myself in isolation from all of my friends earlier this school year and in
the process I lost all of my friends. All of them except one, I think. I'm not even positive about that friend, as
she doesn't email me anymore. So right now I'm just alone and I hang out with people 30+ years old than me
(my mom and grandparents xD) or a few years younger than me (my cousins). But I have to admit I am content.
I just thought about that because Thursday at the start of school one of my friends (I guess) came into the art
classroom and said hi to one of her friends. I was sitting right there acting like I was searching through my
bag so I wouldn't have to look up or anything and she never said hi to me, I felt something drop inside of me
but I quickly forgot about it during the span of class. Art class that last day seemed empty and I felt anxious
for the fact that I wanted school to hurry up and end so spring break could start already.

Even though it's quite creepy I like this video.

min jun · Member

the closest thing i got is happiness
One day I'm going to go there. That is if we don't all die in 2012, which I doubt. I kind of got happy to post
pictures of the drawing process it took for me to draw this drawing, but then no one commented on it on this
other site. I hate when I get my hopes up for something that doesn't happen.

omfg caro · Friend

We're not all going to die in 2010 hahaha.
That's cool though, I hope you go there some day!
I want to go Europe :)

darkblue · Date: Apr 10 9:04 PM, 2010

i want to backpack through europe. then go to china. then india.
travel the world basically.

DramaQueen · Friend

I wish I'd taken a gap year and travelled. Im so jealous of some of my new friend's stories.

Where was that picture taken?

min jun · Member

Yeah, I know we're not going to die. xD I want to go to Europe too.

Same here, though I don't want to go everywhere, just certain places that have interested me.

The picture was taken in South Korea, in Seoul, I think.

min jun · Member

An analysis of my how productive my spring break was. Honestly it wasn't that productive to be exact, well
school wise it wasn't productive. I wish it could start back over again. I'm not ready to go back to school. *sighs*

[+] study hangul and romanize out the
b2st member thanks of my b2st cd
[+] draw lee do hyeong for visual arts class
and obsess over other hot guy ulzzangs
[+] work on my huge english project
[+] mope over how boring my life is
[+] spend time on the comp doing
nothing

In red was what I didn't do and in bold is what I did do.

omfg caro · Friend

I feel you, I mope around all the time doing nothing.
Especially this weekend it was very boring.
Ughhh
Don't worry, just work hard :D

baaaby raven · Friend

Procrastination suucks, but I imagine that's how my spring break will look, too. Just make this week better, that's all!

min jun · Member

Working very hard now. But I still haven't worked on my English project. Spring break has procrastination written all over it.

min jun · Member

Send me to Korea already, I really want to go. I hate seeing how happy my friends are and asking myself
why I'm not that happy. People always tell me the same advice over and over on how to make friends,
"talk more" blah blah blah. But know one knows how it's like to be mute only at school. Sometimes I find
that I lose my voice and earlier this semester I found I couldn't say small words to people anymore. I seriously
just couldn't talk which worried me since I've never had a problem with saying yes or no and tiny words like
that. Then there was my first presentation for journalism...I went dead for a few seconds and froze up. I could-
nt say anything, which scared me even worse. I can't really say that this year has been hell, but friend-wise it's
been pretty bad. This year has been lonely and I found myself wanting to talk to people but I was too scared.
I mean, I like talking to people on the internet, for the main reason that people don't personally know me. I'm
afraid to make friends because then people will judge me for the way I act. I'm not the perfectest person in the
world, but everyone acts like people who have faults are so bad, when they have obvious faults themselves.
I'm not much to look at, and I'm guessing when people learn that I like kpop it'll be really shocking because I
look so boring and I don't talk. But I just find myself having nothing to say because no one else has the same
interests as me. I know we all want to start over and if I could start over I would for the fact that I hate where
I am right now. The continuous loss of friends really ****ed up my life. All my close friends move away.

There was two senior pranks this year. The first one was a sign saying that the school was for sale. Literally
they made a sign and had those little triangle streamer thingys connected to it, like you see at car dealerships.
It was cool, but alright, better than last year with all those floats in the school lake. Then earlier this week
another one was spawned up. Apparently some guys somehow got up and took down the letters on the main
building of the school so that it spelled "incest highschool". Really funny, but I haven't seen it yet. There was
apparently an award for anyone who turned the people in that did it because it was vandalism.

I love this song.

baaaby raven · Friend

Well, luckily the school year's almost over and you can start over next year. You should do other things to make friends outside of school if you're not comfortable in school. I'm not sure what exactly you could do/would want to do but it'd be a good idea because even if school was lonely, you could still feel like you're a part of something.
That's how my best friend is-- she's not mute and she has a couple friends at school but she haaaates her school and the people in it. So every weekend and every break she has, she spends it with her friends from home you know?

omfg caro · Friend

i'm shy, when i stand in front of my classmates i shake,
my voice gets squeaky, eyes tear up, etc.
now, with the days counting down... i'm different. of course i'm not raising my hand for every answer or talking to the kids that i haven't talked to since middle school.
but i can stand up in front of them and not care what they think of me
you're like me, i over analyze things so deeply it keeps me from opening up to others or doing the things i really want. people are always going to judge, you just have to chose to ignore it.
and when it comes to writing, i realized over the years nobody wants to do it as much as you! so just get it over with :D maybe in the middle, most people wont be paying attention anyways. easy as pie lol
it's something that takes time, but you can get over it. don't underestimate yourself :)

that was long post,
my bad hahaha

heartcorekiss · Friend

those are really good pranks compared to my schools lame ones -_-
and on being quiet and shy. you sound so much like me. i honestly only have like four people i talk to everyday. and the only people that invite me to do things. i always look surprised when someone talks to me, and i trip over my words. i'd tell you to try and talk to be people, but i know how hard and unfamiliar it is.

min jun · Member

I can't help but think next year will be just as lonely as this one. I hardly go outside of my house, lmao. I'm one of those people who's stuck inside and I only go out if I have to, or if I want to go somewhere. Basically the people I live around are the same ones that go to my school and idk about that.

I hate shaking in front of the class. I've never done that until this year and I don't even notice until I'm back in my seat and I'm still shaking. I feel that my senior year will be a better one as the senior class acts as a whole or something like that. Plus you're superior over the underclassmen. xD It's hard to ignore other people judging you. Sometimes I ask myself why I'm not normal.

Haha yeah. But the guys who did the letter thingy got arrested. Four is better than none! I tend to trip over my words also and pause because I can't talk.

min jun · Member

Why is the Japanese version of everything so much better?

The US version is good also in terms of Leona Lewis' song. But there's just
something that doesn't go. Maybe the song doesn't match it, even though
it's My Hands is a good song. But either way both are breathtaking. I know
FF XIII came out like a month ago or two (sometime), but one of my online
friends brought it up and so we both watched this guy go through missions
of the Japanese version on YouTube. I'm only on the 4th mission while she's
on the 20th, but then she switched over to the story. I've been thinking about
begging my dad to get me a 360 so I can play it. But I'm really scared. I
mean I shouldn't be since he's my day, but idk our relationship is complicated.
I only see him like once or twice a year and those meetings are so awkward.
I sometimes wish my family was still together instead of broken apart, but my
parents have been split for years and my mom has went through three boyfriends?
I get jealous of her because all these guys like her, but no one has ever liked
me. No one that I know of at least. But anyway, today was one of those
rare good days. Partially because I got my B2ST CD and I opened it and
got really happy this morning before going to school and then I just felt...
good! I then forgot to bring my school ID with me and I knew I could get in
trouble but no one seemed to notice I wasn't wearing my ID. Usually
administration is around saying, "where's your ID?" "Get your ID on," and
crap like that, but no one said that today. I then went with ease through
my classes and played Soul Silver on the busride home.

min jun · Member

I've been thinking about my future and I've settled on this: I want to get the **** out of this country as soon
as I have enough money to actually get out of the country and just travel. The thing is, is that I want someone
to be there beside me to go along with my on my journey. I mean, I know I'm not alone, I'm never alone, but
physically I'll be alone without anyone there for me to talk to. So...I want someone, possibly a close friend or
something to be able to go with me traveling here and there so I won't feel so alone and out of sync. I really want
to travel to Seoul and Tokyo and all that cool stuff. I think I really want to visit those gaming arcades and stuff
just to spend my time with playing games with little kids watching all around me, lmao. I want to try different
foods and see different kinds of people instead of the usual mix. I want to stick out instead of blend in and see
how people actually look at me and wonder what do they think about me because of my appearance. I love
America, but you get tired after a while knowing that there's more cooler places out there, but yet we act like
we're the ****. I want to go to Canada, Europe, Asia, Australia, to all those beautiful places and then come
back to the US and fall in love with my country all over again, knowing that I really don't want to be here and
somewhere else in the world because it intrigues me. *sighs* Whether this will happen, I don't know.

-- Edited by min jun on Wednesday 21st of April 2010 05:57:29 PM

darkblue · Date: Apr 21 6:49 PM, 2010

wow, i feel the same way. after traveling abroad to europe (france) in college, i want to travel the world. i really want to go to africa and south america. i just really want to go everywhere.
i've even comtemplated moving to england when i'm older and finding a man with an accent hahaha

omfg caro · Friend

Ya I see lol
I'm like the same way.
It's like college, I want to go away but I don't want to go away alone.
):

baaaby raven · Friend

Ah I love how you put that-- to fall in love with your country again. That's theee perfect way to do say it and that's exactly what I want to do as well.