Hey thanks for replying.. it's good to know I'm not the only one.
I talked to my friend about it the other day who had an eating disorder as well and she said she understood and told me to know that it's simply a number. And I was thinking about it.... what the fuuck does a number have to do with the kind of person I am? I have great friends, a decent life, and people seem to like me alright (sorry if that sounds conceited)...but what it comes down to is that I'm afraid of feeling weak. I don't know if that's the same for you, but I guess the increase in my weight makes me feel weak and I don't want that.
So I guess it's just figuring out what kind of emotion is behind the word.. since for me, there normally is. I hope you feel better and anytime ya need to talk to someone about that stuff, pm me. I'm pretty good with those situations!


THANK YOU :)

It all really depends on how extreme you are when it comes to weight loss that would diagnose you with an eating disorder.

Yeah normally it's all about emotional ****.. body image is definitely a part of it but mostly it's like if you don't wanna deal with shiit then you try to control it by doing other things.

Like for you Gigi, if I were you then I would just take some inventory to see what kind of problems you have and how you deal with them.. that kinda thing. Big signs are isolation, depression, being obsessive (about weight, etc), excessively exercising, withdrawl... the usual "symptoms" that you would hear I guess.

if you want to read a bunch of boring specifics on the physical/psychological criteria for being diagnosed with an eating disorder, here they are. they'll probably be updated soon though, the new DSM manual is supposed to come out this year (wooo, AP psych).

the DSM manual lists criteria of anorexia as:

-Refusal to maintain body weight at or above a minimally normal weight for age and height (e.g. weight loss leading to maintenance of body weight less than 85% of that expected; or failure to make expected weight gain during period of growth, leading to body weight less than 85% of that expected).

-Intense fear of gaining weight or becoming fat, even though underweight.

-Disturbance in the way in which one's body weight or shape is experienced, undue influence of body weight or shape on self-evaluation, or denial of the seriousness of the current low body weight.

-Amenorrhea (at least three consecutive cycles) in postmenarchal girls and women. Amenorrhea is defined as periods occurring only following hormone (e.g., estrogen) administration.

for bulimia, it's:

-Recurrent episodes of binge eating. An episode of binge eating is characterized by both of the following:
Eating, in a fixed period of time, an amount of food that is definitely larger than most people would eat under similar circumstances. Mainly eating binge foods.
A lack of control over eating during the episode: a feeling that one cannot stop eating or control what or how much one is eating.

-Recurrent inappropriate compensatory behavior to prevent weight gain, such as: self-induced vomiting; misuse of laxatives, diuretics, or other medications; fasting; excessive exercise.

-Triggers include periods of stress, traumatic events, and self-evaluation of body shape and weight.

-These symptoms may occur after every meal, on a daily basis, or once every few months.

-The disturbance does not occur exclusively during episodes of anorexia nervosa.

for EDNOS (eating disorder not otherwise specified), it can be any of these:

-For females, all of the criteria for anorexia nervosa are met except that the individual has regular menses.

-All of the criteria for anorexia nervosa are met except that, despite substantial weight loss, the individual's current weight is in the normal range.

-All of the criteria for bulimia nervosa are met except that binge eating and inappropriate compensatory mechanisms occur at a frequency of less than twice a week or for a duration of less than 3 months.

-The regular use of inappropriate compensatory behavior by an individual of normal body weight after eating small amounts of food (eg; self-induced vomiting after the consumption of two cookies).

-Repeatedly chewing and spitting out, but not swallowing, large amounts of food.

-Binge eating disorder: recurrent episodes of binge eating in the absence of the regular use of inappropriate compensatory behaviors characteristic of bulimia nervosa

same. it's so hard, because like, her parents spent all this money to put her in a recovery program, but when she got out she hated the amount of weight she'd gained so she went on master cleanse and started running for hours a day. and her mom didn't even care! it's crazy. i don't really know what to do, because she really needs help, but it's impossible to talk to her about it.

I don't think there is much to do.... when people are ready to change, they'll do what it takes, but if they aren't then they're like ehhh whatever.

Exaaaactly

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heartcorekiss wrote:

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so even though i'm not anorexic or anything, but because we're talking about weight. i just hate how i'm so skinny and people's first thoughts is that i don't eat.

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I know exactly how you feel - i used to get that ALL the time, before i put on weight at uni haha - i'm still just in the healthy range though. But i didnt realise it at first until my friend told me people always assumed i was like one of my best friends who is anorexic.

Anyway, I have waaaayyy too much to say on this topic i wouldnt know where to start. :/

 

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yeah i got told at my school dance that i looked so skinny and people were so jealous blahblahblah it made me think of what they would say behind my back if they said that to my face.

and i remember your past blog entries about it :/

Yeah I agree.. I would always be called skinny, or people would insinuate it while talking to me, and I hated it. Even teachers did it to me and it got really offensive.

Ah Annie that's horrible....

that's so mean! why would she say something like that ?